永远已成过去的张胡之恋(1)

小三一

文人就是与俗子不同，连爱也成类而变成古董，就从胡张认识之初开始吧。
胡兰成第二天就兴冲冲地去了张爱玲家，她住的赫德路与他所在的大西路美丽园本来就隔得不远。可张爱玲果真不见生客。胡兰成却不死心，从门缝里递进去一张字条，写了自己的拜访原因及家庭住址、电话号码，并乞爱玲小姐方便的时候可以见一面。第二天，张爱玲打了电话给胡兰成，说要去看他不久就到了。张爱玲拒绝他的到访，又自己亲自去见他，主意变得好快。其实早前，胡兰成因开罪汪精卫而被关押，张爱玲曾经陪苏青去周佛海家说过情。因此，她是知道他的。于是，就这样见面了。 真正见了面，胡兰成只说与他所想的全不对。他一是觉得张爱玲个子之高，二是觉得她坐在那里，幼稚可怜相，不象个作家，倒象个未成熟的女学生。但他两人一谈就是五个小时。从品评时下流行作品，到问起张爱玲每月写稿的收入。对一个初次见面的小姐问这样的问题，实在是失礼的，但“因为相知，所以懂得”，两人已有了知交之感，所以张爱玲倒未觉得胡兰成的话很唐突。胡兰成送张爱玲到弄堂口，并肩走着，他忽然说：“你的身裁这样高，这怎么可以？”只这一句话，就忽地把两人的距离拉近了。“这怎么可以”的潜台词是从两个人般配与否的角度去比较的，前提是已经把两人作为男女放在一起看待了。张爱玲很诧异，几乎要起反感了，但，真的是非常好。 次日，胡兰成去回访张爱玲。她房里竟是华贵到使他不安，胡兰成形容说，三国时刘备进孙夫人的房间，就有这样的兵气。那天，张爱玲穿了一件宝蓝绸袄裤，戴了嫩黄边框的眼镜。多年后，胡兰成对这些细节都有着清晰的回忆。此后，他每天都去看张爱玲。一天，他向张爱玲提起刊登在《天地》上的照片，张爱玲便取出来送给他，还在后面题上几句话： “见了他，她变得很低很低，低到尘埃里。但她心里是欢喜的，从尘埃里开出花来。” 倾城之恋 这一年，胡兰成38岁，张爱玲24岁。但很快，他们恋爱了。他们谈情说爱的方式似乎是他们最初相识的延续。胡兰成在南京办公，一个月回一次上海，一住八、九天。每次回上海，他不回美丽园自己的家，而是径直赶到赫德路，先去看张爱玲两人每天在一起，喁喁私语无尽时。 但当时世人并不了解他们之间的感情，只觉得胡兰成的政治身份是汉奸，又有妻室，年纪大到几乎可以做张爱玲的父亲。世人都觉得这样的爱情似乎有些不可思议，都是为张爱玲惋惜的。但张爱玲自己并不这样觉得。 “因为懂得，所以慈悲。” 胡兰成是懂张爱玲的，懂她贵族家庭背景下的高贵优雅。
2016-08-26日於德阳

小三一

At the moment, the sky is dark, the air is fresh factor after just rained. Suddenly thought of blue plaid shirt; Those were broken into various shapes of stationery; From the corner at the beginning of deep friendship; Have declared the end of the encounter that haven't start planning... Those years, those days of do, finally, like youth, will end in our life.

小三一

At the moment, the sky is dark, the air is fresh factor after just rained. Suddenly thought of blue plaid shirt; Those were broken into various shapes of stationery; From the corner at the beginning of deep friendship; Have declared the end of the encounter that haven't start planning... Those years, those days of do, finally, like youth, will end in our life.

小三一

The end of our life, and can meet many things really do? During my childhood, think lucky money and new clothes are necessary for New Year, but as the advance of the age, will be more and more found that those things are optional; Junior high school, thought to have a crush on just means that the real growth, but over the past three years later, his writing of alumni in peace, suddenly found that isn't really grow up, it seems is not so important; Then in high school, think don't want to give vent to out your inner voice can be in the high school children of the feelings in a period, but was eventually infarction when graduation party in the throat, later again stood on the pitch he has sweat profusely, looked at his thrown a basketball hoops, suddenly found himself has already can't remember his appearance. Originally, this world, can produce a chemical reaction to an event, in addition to resolutely, have to do, and time.

小三一

为什么没有麻友顶啊？是文子啰嗦还是亵渎你复杂而纯洁的明亮眼晴与心灵，是看到小三一文字深感极度恐慌还是让你厌恶呕吐而不符实际又不安?拷问別人时可不可以先拷问自己?跪谢！